6 Months...

So, I was thinking yesterday how CRAZY the last 6 months of my life have been and thought "Hey! I should write this all down so that I don't forget!" Haha! So this post is just me thinking out loud...

~I started dating Jared again...thought it was it and I'd never have to date again.
~Was told for the first time "I love you"
~Began the juggle of school, boyfriend, and working full time.
~Quit my lifeguard job to be a CNA, didn't feel good about it so I never started the job and went jobless for a month cause I didn't want to go back to the pool.
~In the meantime I was kicked out of school because I didn't get financial aid...still jobless too. ~Couldn't have made it through the struggle without the boy
~Since I desperately needed money and something to do I swallowed my pride and went back to lifeguarding...ugh...
~Things started to get rocky with the boy...but I figured we'd work through it. We loved each other...everything would be ok.
~I decided to go on a mission...and I felt REALLY good about it so I started the process. ~Things started to get REALLY rocky...
~Didn't feel quite so good about a mission but I kept on going.
~Things with roommates a little rocky due to me selling my contract without telling them. Not much I could do about this though...
~Started working at the Kearns pool teaching swim lessons. Though the commute was a bugger, I wasn't going to be doing it for long so I thought what the heck I might as well.
~Was told "I don't love you anymore" by the boy. The most devastating words I have ever had to hear...EVER.
~Due to the last point...I moved home the day after the breakup. I wanted my mommy.
~Kept moving forward with mission plans and living at home and working. Not easy, But I did it :)
~Mission papers IN! Best feeling in the whole world!

And now here I am writing this post. The last six months have had their ups and downs but such is life right? As I was thinking about all of this I thought "Would I change anything? Do I have any regrets?" And the answer...I don't know. What I do know is I'm in the right place in life and I wouldn't change where I'm at for anything. I don't know if I'd be in the same place if I had done things differently. I'll never know. But I'm happy and enjoying my job and spending time with my family :)

WAY cute FONTS!

So, I LOVE the fonts on this website http://www.kevinandamanda.com/fonts/ but HOLY! It took forever to get it all worked out so I could use it on my blog but it was WAY worth it and they are WAY cute!!!

I Just Haven't Met You Yet

So with all the recent events...this song has meant a lot to me! I love the lyrics and every time I get down on myself all I have to do is listen to this song and I feel so much better!!! Enjoy!

I'm not surprised
Not everything lasts
I've broken my heart so many times I stopped keeping track
Talk myself in
I talk myself out
I get all worked up
Then I let myself down

I tried so very hard not to loose it
I came up with a million excuses
I thought I thought of every possibility

And I know some day that it’ll all turn out
You'll make me work so we can work to work it out
And I promise you kid that I give so much more than I get
I just haven't met you yet

I might have to wait
I’ll never give up
I guess it's half timin', and the other half's luck
Wherever you are
Whenever it's right
You'll come outta nowhere and into my life

And I know that we can be so amazin'
And baby your love is gonna change me
And now I can see every possibility

Somehow I know that it’ll all turn out
You'll make me work so we can work to work it out
And promise you kid, I'll give so much more than I get
I just haven't met you yet

They say all’s fair
In love and war
But I won’t need to fight it
We'll get it right and
We'll be united

And I know that we can be so amazin'
And bein' in your life is gonna change me
And now I can see every single possibility

And someday I know it'll all turn out
And I'll work to work it out
Promise you kid I’ll give more than I get
Than I get, than I get, than I get

Oh, you know it'll all turn out
And you'll make me work so we can work to work it out
And promise you kid to give so much more than I get, yeah
I just haven't met you yet

I just haven't met you yet
Oh, promise you kid
To give so much more than I get

I just haven't met you yet
I just haven't met you yet!

To those of you who read my blog:

You all know that I am going on a MISSION so its time to take guesses to where YOU think I will go! Just comment with your guess and I will put it on the map! A treat for whoever guesses the closest!
P.S. My call should come second or third week in JANUARY so you better guess right!

Saddest Day of my LIFE!

So with the recent events of going on a mission, I have decided to sell my car. It kind of makes me want to cry. I have loved my car and bonded with it and I will be so sad to see it go. Granted, we could keep it and just keep paying the payment while I'm gone and I see the pros about that...but I also think its kind of a waste of money for a car that will just sit there for 18 months. It is kind of exciting cause when I get back I can get a new car (well, new to me) and get to have the opportunity of bonding with another car all over again...but I HATE car shopping...its so stressful! But, its the smartest thing to do to sell it and save the money for the next 18 months. I'll cry, I'll be honest. I love my car.The day I brought her home

This car has gotten me through (almost) two winters and it does FANTASTIC in the snow! Two trips to California...one for Spring Break, one for a friend's wedding. Its a phenomenal road trip car. Plenty of room in the trunk, back seat is roomy even with the front seats all the way back, and the ride is so smooth you barely feel anything.Spring Break 2009...Southern California

And the gas mileage...talk about amazing! Its a V6 engine and it gets an average of 32 miles to the gallon just with regular driving. On the long drive to California, it gets an average of about 40! LOVE IT! I have never had a single problem or a single complaint about my car. I have loved it and would recommend a G6 to anyone! Fabulous car! I'll miss it so much!!!

Confession...

So, my wonderful cousin Katie, knowing I needed a night out, invited me to go see New Moon with her last night. I was the only single girl there...everyone else was married with 2+ kids. Thats ok though, I really needed it and I am forever grateful that Katie and I are close enough that she knew that. And I am going to be honest...I was impressed! Not only was Jacob yummylishess but the movie was better than I expected. Yes, I have read the books, yes I saw Twilight and I was NOT impressed to say the least. And I think that the actor/actress that they chose for Bella and Edward are awkward and emotionless. Not to mention...Robert Pattinson is U-G-L-Y!!! But New Moon was a surprise. I thought Kristen Stewart did a better job in New Moon than in Twilight...but then again she is supposed to be depressed the majority of the movie so she has that down pat. All except for the end...could you show just a LITTLE happiness that the love of your life is back in town and you two are together? And Robert...ENOUGH with the stressed-out-I-have-to-protect-you-all-the-time act...SMILE for pete's sake! You are supposed to LOVE Bella! By the end of the movie...I had officially switched over to Team Jacob. Who could resist those brooding eyes or washboard abs? NOT me...and I don't know how Bella did either. If I had the choice...it wouldn't be Edward...especially when you put the two next to each other with their shirts off. JACOB! JACOB! JACOB!

Tis the Season for Joy

At least its supposed to be. The last week has been really rough and I really wish that there were something to look forward to. Usually this time of year is happy and fun with time to spend with family and friends. Right now I want to crawl in a hole and cry. Or just not get out of bed. I know that life isn't supposed to be fair...but let me just add a 10-year-old-esque whine in here: This is TOTALLY unfair.

I am once again let down without any answers other than "I don't know what else to say." And sorry just didn't cut it. As I sat there on the phone and bawled my eyes out, knowing things were officially over, I didn't feel like 'sorry' was really heartfelt. There was only callousness on the other end. There wasn't even the decency to be in private. Just once I wish I held at least a couple of the cards. But when it comes to this, I never have. Its never been up to me.

I really could use something to look forward to...something to keep me going. Right now all I have is halted mission plans and moving home. I'm to the point where I don't want to hold things together anymore. I don't want to put on a brave front and act like everything will be ok. Because right now...everything is NOT ok. So if I don't smile, if I don't reply to you with some cheerful remark, if you feel like I've been especially rude to you, or if I completely ignore you I apologize in advance. I really don't mean it. I know that I shouldn't, but I'm going to just take the time I need to sulk and be alone.

I really am grateful for the friends and family I have right now though...its times like these that you learn who really cares about you and who means the most. I love all of you who have been there for me when I needed a shoulder to cry on or just some time to vent. Thank you for being there for me. One thing I am sure of: As we move into yet another holiday season, I am truly gratful for my Savior and for the sacrifice he made for me. I would not be able to survive life right now if I did not have that knowledge. I don't want to do the big gatherings and parties and presents and bows this year...Just some quiet time to be with family is all I need right now. Where I don't have to put on a front and I can be surrounded by people who truly care.

Sad day indeed

I hate that I can't sleep and that my tummy hurts and its 5:30 am... The end of my update.

Princess Time

On Thursday I got to spend time with these two cuties, Mia and Andie, and I loved every minute of it! They are so cute! Mia was energetic and fun as usual and I loved being able to snuggle Andie for most of the morning! Here are a few pictures I was able to take on my phone...I really need to get a new camera...but these are great quality anyway :)

SILENCE!..... I have an announcemet!!!!!

I thought maybe since I have started the process I should start telling people...only a handful know and for some reason I still haven't felt the need to shout it from the rooftops. So for those of you that DON'T know...no you aren't WAY out of the loop...and for those of you that already know...sorry you have to read a post of news you already know.

Now enough of the suspense....

I, Erin Page, as of next week, will be.......


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Yes, folks its true. Papers are started. They will be in next week. I am SUPER excited!!!!

Honest to a fault...

My friend Emily tagged me in the Honest Blogger Tag. Here are the rules: List ten honest things about myself and tag 10 other bloggers who I think are honest in their blogging to do the same! Happy reading!

1-I am a pack rat. I have a really hard time just throwing things away...I have to literally force myself to throw out notes, wedding announcements (sorry girls...so much clutter though!), lists, etc, etc.

2-I don't match my socks...because it takes so much time to fold socks, I end up just stuffing them in the drawer and when it comes time to put on my socks I just grab two and put them on. Jared's mom loves it so much she has started buying me socks. It cracks me up!

3-I am a closet curser. What can I say, I love a good swear word every now and then...

4-I am taking the funnest class right now, Human Sexuality. I love it and I am not ashamed to admit that.

5-#1 addiction: Carmex Chapstick. Can't live without it.

6-I could sleep and no nothing all day easily...its very, very bad...

7-I hate being wet. I know weird, but its the honest truth. My showers are never long and if I can avoid it I won't go swimming or get in water fights. Its just not fun to me...

8-I love the Disney Channel. Its one of my favorites.

9-I'm a sucker for a good romance novel... I know, sappy, but it just makes me so happy that they all end with their "soulmate" in the end..

10-Honestly, I hate tags like this. They take so much time to do, but I love reading others' tags that I do them so that other people will have the same joy reading mine.

I tag: Teigan Benson, Shannon Jex, Katie Hansen, Ashley Baugh, Brynne Burton, Tia Bowen, Jamie Sain, Heidi Madsen...

Fall and all that comes with it...

So I am currently sitting in the gorgeous UVU library...according to Jared I'm "studying" but I'm obviously not. I'll get there eventually... I just felt the need to blog stalk and in the midst of it all I decided it was time to update my blog.

Life it good. I couldn't ask for anything more. I have a wonderful boyfriend who is so good to me...I didn't think I would ever be so blessed! I also can't believe its been three months already...wow does time fly! Fall is here and with it a respite from the heat of summer and the changing of the leaves. This is one of my favorite times of year. Things are beginning to settle into a routine...school, homework, boy, family, etc. THANKSGIVING is only a mere two months away (for those of you who are unaware, this is my favorite holiday BY FAR...I can't wait...), and what's better than food and family you love all in one day?! I don't think there is anything else. Jared has recently been teaching me to ride a motorcycle and its been so fun! I was terrified at first but the more I get the hang of it and the better I get the more I love it! And it'll be something that we can do together so I'm really excited about that (no pics yet...I know I'm horrible at that part. I used to be so good but my camera broke and with no job that's at the bottom of the expenses list. I'm hoping for Christmas or birthday I can get a new one...). I have the best roommates ever and I am so glad that we all get along so well. Of course we have our moments sometimes (five girls in one apt...enough said) but we all love each other and we don't petty little things get in the way of what means the most.

I know this is like the cheesiet post I've ever done...but I just feel so blessed recently and life is so good I couldn't help but share :) Hope you are all having a fabulous September!

USA!!!!!

After a month of trying to get tickets...I was finally able to score some for the USA vs El Salvador World Cup Qualifier Soccer Game at Rio Tinto Stadium on September 5th!!!  I surprised Jared and he had NO CLUE I had been planning this.  It was so fun and SO worth seeing the smile on his face when we got to the stadium!  USA totally kicked butt and El Salvador put up a good fight...but we managed to stay on top with a 2 to 1 ending score!  Here are some pics!

A Letter to Those Who Read My Blog

Dear Reader,

School officially starts tomorrow. And although its the start of, hopefully, the downward slope in my schooling, it is also the official end of summer. Its kind of a bummer to be honest. I know a lot of people that are really excited for school to start but I am just not one of them right now. This summer has been so much fun that I am really sad for it to end. Let me give you a quick recap of my summer...
*I moved back to Village with some girls I absolutely love! They are, hands down, the best roommates I have ever had. It has been so fun getting to know them more and getting to spend time with them.
*I took a few summer classes at UVU and I proud to report that all of them went really well. I got a wonderful two week break at the end that I enjoyed so much!
*I got to go to California...yet again...for the Kyle and Erin Sawyer wedding. It was such a blast going with the E1209 girls! Wish I could go back...
*Work brought on some new challenges and I am proud of myself for keeping my mouth shut and plugging forward...even though I wanted to quit most of the time. I am very grateful to have a job and so I have stuck with it. Summer is now over and the outside is closed...Hallelujah.
*Don't forget the fateful day when I had clothes stolen from my apartment complex's laundry room...all of my nice clothes in that load were unrecovered, sad to say, and I am slowly replacing everything.
*Rodeos and Family get togethers anyone? We had plenty of those this summer and it was a blast!
*Fire, Water, Ice Festival in 54 degree weather? You bet! And we survived yet another year with no major injuries and only a FEW cases of hypothermia. And the fireworks were amazing, as always. Not to mention the fact that we were home at 12:30...that is a record!
*My senior year award from the swim team "So many boys, so little time" rang true for me this summer. At the beginning there was one I had my eye on and things STARTED out well...didn't end all that great. I was bummed...until about a month ago. Those of you that talk to me often are probably sick of hearing it but Jared and I are back together and its been the best! Just one more evidence that things are on the Lord's time and not ours. I couldn't be happier.
*With the summer ending, Melissa, my shared-roommate moved out and I was super sad! And a little nervous for the new girl to move in. But I was blessed with a wonderful roommate Megan. She is a sweetheart and I am so grateful I did not get a crazy.
*The dedication of the Utah Oquirrh Mountain Temple was incredible and I was once again reminded what a great place we live in to have 7 temples within and hour of each other. We are so blessed!
*My family is amazing and my brother, Cameron, is getting ready to sign his papers for the Army Special Forces. I am so proud of him and I am honored to have a brother fighting for my freedom.
And with that, summer ends. It has been a very eventful and amazing summer and I have a feeling that the next couple semesters and years are going to be just as eventful. I hope all of you out there in blogging land are geared up for school and the onset of Winter very soon. Its all going by so fast it boggles my mind. Sometimes I just wish life would slow down enough that I could look at each individual moment and really cherish them. Good luck to all of you in your endeavors in the near future! My thoughts, prayers, and love are always with you!

Love, Erin

Top 10 reasons why life is amazing right now...

Ten: My bed...as simple as this seems, I have done a lot of camping lately and its starting to take a toll on my hips (I sound like an old woman...) so at this moment in time I am VERY grateful for my bed.

Nine: Being able to go to the temple. What an opportunity!

Eight: Hand-me-downs from roommates. Especially when they keep you toasty warm on a frosty campout.
Seven: Being able to cook. I take it for granted every day but I am so grateful that I grew up learning how to cook. It has come in handy recently that I am able to whip up meals really fast.

Six: My family. I have the greatest immediate and extended family on the planet. Go Scoffields!

Five: Gas prices being cheap...at least cheaper than last summer. Honestly, I hear people complain all the time about gas being 2.60$ a gallon...really people?! Be grateful you aren't paying 4$ a LITER!!!

Four: The Gospel. I have always been grateful for the Gospel in my life but right now I am especially grateful for it. What an amazing thing we have!!
Three: The country that I live in and the freedoms I enjoy. We are so blessed and we have so much that most of us aren't even grateful for and never even think about. Its time we start realizing what we have and be thankful for it.

Two: My wonderful roommates! They are the best and I love them oodles!

One: The love of my life, Jared Smith. Thanks for all you do, babe! You are my whole life and my whole world and I have no clue what I would do without you! I love you tons!

FOR SELL.......

I'm selling my baby :'( But I really need the money right now. Alibi 148 snowboard with Ride bindings-300$. Been used three times, still has factory wax, not a scratch on it. 32 Prion size 8 boots...Perfect condition, 150$. Package deal 400$. Spread the word. Need to sell ASAP!

Taking Donations.

With the sudden event of my clothes being stolen from the laundry room at my apt complex, I am now taking donations for the "Replace Erin's Clothes Fund." There is a slim chance that my clothing will be recovered and it is very sad! I am a poor struggling college student who can barely afford food...let alone replacing a quarter of my wardrobe. If you feel so inclined to donate let me know :)

P.S. You really don't need to donate...I just thought this would be a cute way to tell you all how exciting my day was yesterday. I have filed a theft report with the Orem Police Department and we are still working on getting a copy of the video to them. Yes, the little creeps were caught on tape. Makes me angry all over again every time I watch it. My clothes weren't the only ones stolen...the creeps took someone else's as well. I hope they get whats coming to them. The Officer this morning even said that if we do catch them, he will turn his head so that I can bloody their noses and kick them in the.........yeah hahaha! And yes...thats exactly how the cop put it :o) great man...great man...

The weekend in pictures...

So instead of telling you what happened over the weekend...I'm just gonna show you!

Friday night...Strawberry Days Rodeo with the roommates...and it wouldn't be any fun unless we took a buttload of pictures!


Saturday I stopped at Jahuga's work where they were doing a health fair...the funnest part was watching her dress up as a firefighter! I've never seen someone so exicted! She tops ANY six year old hand down!


And then Father's Day at the Grandparents...I didn't take very many pictures...but I did manage to get a few great ones of Bennet and Mia of course! Oh...and the lovely one of my mom...she is a character...